Move To The Groove Or Get Your Toes Stepped On

Wednesday Trevor is filing for divorce. The whole process from start to finish will take less than a month. Wow. I think it's for the best. I don't think there was even a 48 hour period ONCE in our whole marriage where we went without fighting. Big things. Small things. Imaginary things. You name it, we fought about it. I just started taking a Phlebotomy course. I should graduate from it December 6th and I want to have a full time job by Christmas. I'm so excited to be financially independent. Figure out a budget and stick with it. Decorate how I want to without wondering if it's too girly. I get to be involved in home groups- something Trevor refused to do & I was too embarrassed to go alone. I get hang out with old girlfriends that Trevor didn't like. If I want to get my nose pierced I can (I'm not going to because I don't think I can for my job haha but still). Is it going to be hard being a single parent while working full time a feel like I'm me again. I nicer, much more calm & rational version of me. Hopefully more mature as well. I feel happy again, I say stupid phrases like "hotter then a whore in a church" & "awesome sauce". I know that sounds stupid but I don't know how else to describe it. I can cook chili in the middle of the summer. Who cares if its hot?! I don't! I really appreciate my parents helping me with everything but I'm ready to be in my own house, being the only disciplinarian in my girls' lives. I ready to not have an opinion given for everything. I'm ready for them to go back to being my parents and the girls' grandparents... Not co-parents. I am ready to have to take care of remembering to get the cars oil changed. I'm not going to have a guy in my life for the first time in over 4 years. Granted, that sends me into a slight state of panic but I can handle it. I can do it! "I think I can. I think I can. I think I can."